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Hey.
This blog is a simply a transcript of my thoughts.
I'm 17. Aquarius ♒. From Adelaide. My friends refer to me as Bubbles on a frequent
basis because of a habit of mine.. ahem
Feel free to comment, I like comments.
Everyone's been asking me how I've been. And just to let any of those who bothers to care know, that I'm doing quite well. Better than I thought I'd be. Even though yes, there is still that tiny part of me trying to recover from all of this but it's much better from how it felt a few days ago, a week ago, when it was the peak of all of this. I haven't shed a single tear yet! Wells, I have gotten a bit emotional .. teary perhaps too when I ate where we used to eat, walked where we used to walk hand in hand. But those are just the memories. Memories will always be missed.
Facebook. The responses to the change on this socializing site. It seems as though so many people were glad about this change. It really surprised me .. wells for the people who knew what was going on I guess I found that acceptable but from others, who I barely knew almost. It made me question myself, did people find us being together so .. unlikable? I know I shouldn't be bothering over such things but it just really gets to you as well.
Honestly sometimes I wonder why I'm feeling so right. Is the depressing stage delaying its hit on me? Was it because I never really loved this person? Or maybe love was too strong a word to describe this? What if I'd subconsciously fooled myself into loving them. But no I doubt all of this, I'm certain that we at one point at least genuinely cared for each other and I guess it could just be me and I should be happy that the side effects of all of this aren't twisting and churning me all apart. It's a weird ending to it, because I talked to this person last night and I felt really great talking to them on a different basis. (Although I admit that maybe I went a bit too far with the .. b*tchyness, heh) Just to be safe, I think I might distance myself from them for a while - never hurts to be a bit careful. Otherwise I'm never going to get over all of this.
Some things just aren't meant to be I suppose? Who knows, only time will tell. :)
For now, I'm enjoying the SUPERB weather Adelaide has been struck with atm. It's so great, today I'm planning on running to the Aquatics Center with Tiffany. And then I'm going to swim a routined 1km. (Or try to at least!)
Okay, just to update you blog readers and whoever's following that I finally did it :)
Hahah, it may sound weird but I'm actually feeling so damn relieved now!
Should've done this earlier hey? Anyways I'm back to the life I was living six and a half months ago .. no not really. I've changed a lot since then, so it's sorta like staring anew.
Plus spring is the season of new beginnings right? Yeah, so this is perfect.
I'm super duper completely fine. I think this is because so many people cared for me and all that, never felt so cared for before. Friends are zee best love lovev love lovesdfkjskldf S
Champange anyone? ;) (Nah jokes, I better not be lying to myself haha!)
The weather is looking absolutely wonderful today! Too bad I can't go out though, I hate Sundays - I can't go anywhere. If I could I probably would've been at the advance screening of Despicable Me by now!
Sucks to be me ey. I've been awake since 8, and so far I have ..
- started the morning with an .. interesting chat with Trinh :)
- ate half a HJ's breakfast egg muffin with extra BBQ sauce
- two servings of asian jelly
- half a bowl of congee
- half a massive yogurt tub
- couple of marshmellows & strawberries
I think maybe I should just stop eating for the day now! I tried loose curling my hair and it actually looks alright! Might do it more often when I'm going out now.
.. okay nah I'm pretty convinced that it probably just looks like messy bed hair to you guys but, at least it looks like something! :)
Yesterday I went on a shopping spree with dad! And he actually found me a great bargain and was like, "omg get this get this!" Haha, I lurve him.
So I got these, something similar to it but in size 8 (I've gone up jean sizes ;__;) for only $58! I just ceebed taking a photo of my own.
And the last one.. I think a lot of girls have it but anyways, it was the one my dad picked up. From $45 to $15 (plus it's my size!), asians always manage to find the best bargains!
Now if I finished all my homework today, everything would be perfeeeeeeect! :-)
Oh! And my dress arrives in Adelaide tomorrow woot! :)
This isn't the dress but I think it's quite cute.
I want this to be a total misunderstanding, but at the same time I don't want it to be.
Wish me luck guys, I'm going to really need it. In a couple of hours time I'm most likely going to go through something that nobody likes. Tell you how it all goes tonight.
Byebye lovelies.
RE-EDIT!
Yeah um, so my mum called saying she's not taking my brother to swimming anymore - therefore I couldn't stay in town late anymore. Therefore, my plans didn't .. wells they didn't go to plan. :|
Everything is going to be delayed - again. Maybe this is God or whatever force there is up there telling me that I'm doing the wrong thing .. but the coin surely said the opposite! (Have you ever made an extremely important decision based on a coin? Wells I sure did for this)
Dum dum dum, the Ouija board just might be right this time. Freaky shiz.
1. Sleeping Beauty- In Disney’s Sleeping Beauty, the princess is put to sleep when she pricks her finger on a spindle. She sleeps for one hundred years when a prince finally arrives, kisses her, and awakens her. They fall in love, marry, and live happily ever after. In the original, the young woman is put to sleep because of a prophecy, rather than a curse. And it isn’t the kiss of a prince which wakes her up: the king sees her asleep, so he rapes her. After nine months she gives birth to two children (while she is still asleep). One of the children sucks her finger which removes the piece of flax which was keeping her asleep. She wakes up to find herself raped and the mother of two kids.
2. Little Red Riding Hood - The version of this tale that most of us are familiar with ends with Riding Hood being saved by the woodsman who kills the wicked wolf. But in fact, the original French version, there is no woodsman to save her, she ends up being eaten by the wolf.
3. The Little Mermaid - In the Disney version, the film ends with Ariel being changed into a human so she can marry Eric. But, in the very first version by Hans Christian Andersen, the mermaid sees the Prince marry a princess and she despairs. She is offered a knife with which to stab the prince to death, but rather than do that she jumps into the sea and dies by turning to froth.
4. Snow White - In the tale of Snow White that we are all familiar with, the Queen asks a huntsman to kill her and bring her heart back as proof. Instead, the huntsman can’t bring himself to do it and returns with the heart of a boar. In the original tale, the Queen actually asks for Snow White’s liver and lungs – which are to be served for dinner that night. Also in the original, Snow White wakes up when she is jostled by the prince’s horse as he carries her back to his castle – not from a magical kiss. The prince was planning to have sex with the dead body of Snow White.
5. Goldilocks - In this tale, pretty little Goldilocks finds the house of the three bears. She sneaks inside and eats their food, sits in their chairs, and finally falls asleep on the bed of the smallest bear. When the bears return home they find her asleep – she awakens and escapes out the window in terror. The original tale has two possible variations. In the first, the bears find Goldilocks and rip her apart and eat her. In the second, Goldilocks is actually an old hag who (like the sanitized version) jumps out of a window when the bears wake her up. The story ends by telling us that she either broke her neck in the fall, or was arrested for vagrancy and sent to the “House of Correction”.
6. Cinderella - In the modern Cinderella fairy tale we have the beautiful Cinderella swept off her feet by the prince and her wicked step sisters marrying two lords – with everyone living happily ever after. But, lurking behind the pretty tale is a more sinister variation by the Grimm brothers: in this version, the nasty step-sisters cut off parts of their own feet in order to fit them into the glass slipper – hoping to fool the prince. The prince is alerted to the trickery by two pigeons who peck out the step sister’s eyes. They end up spending the rest of their lives as blind beggars while Cinderella gets to lounge about in luxury at the prince’s castle.
The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.- E.H.
I just finished my 40 hour famine around two hours ago and I was seriously starving. But now I'm stuffed! The weight loss from the past hours have been regained.
No really though, during those last few hours of it. I could barely move my body, and this isn't any exaggeration. I couldn't do my homework so I just laid in my mum's bed watching Meet the Browns and slept.
Anywho I've raised around $40! Does anyone else want to donate anymore $$$?
Contact me if so! : )
Found on my USB. Work Experience :)
I got up to doing those pore strips I talked about in one of my earlier posts as well.
I think I did it too thin but it peeled off alright. Wasn't as great as I thought it would be.
The mixture really stunk - if you smell it properly it smells like baby vomit. Yummyy.
So many things have been happening recently, to the people around me.
I just wanna say, keep your chin up and don't let things bring you down.:D
Hahah, but I really should be saying that to myself. Ahh wells! I think I'm just going to let things flow as they do and whatever happens, happens. I've also realised, trying is so hard when you're not getting anything in return.
Tomorrow is my interview with the principle for E. Wish me luck! |:
So you know the previous blog? Wells - just to update those people wondering.
In some ways it was a misunderstanding, but in other ways it was .. I don't know. I think it's because I still feel a bit insecure, cause there are still a few things here and there but everything is slowly improving and getting better! *Thumbs up!
But thanks to all those lovely people who were there with me, who I sooked to, who I complained to 24/7. Without their support this wouldn't have gotten nowhere. They know who they are :-)
In a way I kinda really needed that slap in the face, these days I think carefully about my actions before they're undertaken now.
A note to everyone reading: NEVER EVER JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS
I received my new pair of contact lenses on Monday, they're olive grey but unfortunately due to the quality of phone camera you can't the fine details and glossiness of it.
Oh and today I went to put in the application for E. I bumped into the principal who I'm booked into have an interview with next Monday! Oh my gosh, I think I was blushing or something.
He seemed so nice and friendly! Ahh :$
Wish me luck :)
Dude, I'm trying fucking so hard right now.
And I know I have to be tolerant, be patient, and don't let my emotions get the best of me -
But I just have a feeling my efforts are going to go wasted.
Every detail I hear just plunges me down even more.
And now I don't know if it's worth it or not anymore.
But I don't want to lose this. Like ever.
Omg.
Fuck.
...
I think I'm insane.
I hate everything about you. I hate the way you always act like nothing's wrong and the way you try and avoid the situation when all I want is some attention from you. I hate the way you never tell me things and get me all worried for the rest of the day. And I hate that in the end, you act like nothing's happened and you expect me to be happy with you. I hate how you always boss me around and get angry if I don't do what you want. I hate how you can never tell when I'm mad, and how you can't even tell when I'm happy. I hate how you never believe what I say, even though what I'm saying is the mother f*cking truth. I hate how you always make me believe all these stories in your head and assume they exist in reality. I hate it when we get mad at each other because you're always expecting me to come running back to you. You think you're so much better than me---not only me---but everyone else around. You think that every time we fight, you'll be the one standing in the end while I'm left to beg for forgiveness. Oh, you'd like that wouldn't you? But no, I refuse to lose... especially to someone like you. But in the end, you always find a way of pushing me to the ground. I hate how you make fun of me to the point when it's already far beyond a joke. I hate your girly hands. I hate the fact that sometimes you're more of a girl than I am, and then the next minute you act as if you're on top of the world while I'm a tiny dot blended in with a billion others. In your eyes, that's what I probably am. And I hate how I have to put up with your stubbornness---all the time. But you know what? I want to, because under all that hatred, I still like you... a lot.
I'm sure we've all heard of the phrase, "You don't know what you've got until it's gone".
But the real question is, can you relate?
An extract from the fanfic, 624 Days.
I bet you my secret stack of lollies that at least 98% of all couples can relate to this during some point in their relationships - or simply just all the time. Either one way or the other. I can relate to both sides of it, which one can you relate to?
Lol, cute don't you think?
I was going to make a Michelle Phan pore strip today, which looks really awesome.
But then I found out that it was Agar powder that I had, not gelatin :(
Seriously, if she dyed her eyebrows like a light blond shade or white perhaps, I would think that she's an albino. Apart from that, she can really pull of that nude shot :)
http://gofugyourself.celebuzz.com
Today Pakh & I went for more sushi at Roll & Roll after eating some of that ITSU sushi, (theirs are awe-some !) We overloaded the last two pieces with wasabi.. wells maybe it was just me but the sensation felt so weird! Like you could feel it burning your nose and all that! Orr probably it was just me, since I've never had this amount at a time before.
Oh and that newStrawberries and Cream shake at Boost? Wells yeah, it's not that great. Tastes like that cheap strawberry yoghurt. Waste of $6.20 :(
WOOT at no school tomorrow, we have a science expo thing. Anyone else going?
