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I'm not easy to please
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 || 8:54 PM
Everyone's been asking me how I've been. And just to let any of those who bothers to care know, that I'm doing quite well. Better than I thought I'd be. Even though yes, there is still that tiny part of me trying to recover from all of this but it's much better from how it felt a few days ago, a week ago, when it was the peak of all of this. I haven't shed a single tear yet! Wells, I have gotten a bit emotional .. teary perhaps too when I ate where we used to eat, walked where we used to walk hand in hand. But those are just the memories.
Memories will always be missed.
Facebook. The responses to the change on this socializing site. It seems as though so many people were glad about this change. It really surprised me .. wells for the people who knew what was going on I guess I found that acceptable but from others, who I barely knew almost. It made me question myself, did people find us being together so .. unlikable? I know I shouldn't be bothering over such things but it just really gets to you as well.
Honestly sometimes I wonder why I'm feeling so right. Is the depressing stage delaying its hit on me? Was it because I never really loved this person? Or maybe love was too strong a word to describe this? What if I'd subconsciously fooled myself into loving them. But no I doubt all of this, I'm certain that we at one point at least genuinely cared for each other and I guess it could just be me and I should be happy that the side effects of all of this aren't twisting and churning me all apart. It's a weird ending to it, because I talked to this person last night and I felt really great talking to them on a different basis. (Although I admit that maybe I went a bit too far with the .. b*tchyness, heh) Just to be safe, I think I might distance myself from them for a while - never hurts to be a bit careful. Otherwise I'm never going to get over all of this.
Some things just aren't meant to be I suppose? Who knows, only time will tell. :)
For now, I'm enjoying the SUPERB weather Adelaide has been struck with atm. It's so great, today I'm planning on running to the Aquatics Center with Tiffany. And then I'm going to swim a routined 1km. (Or try to at least!)
